Grief
It hits me at different times
an unexpected shadow on a sunny day
At times when I turn to tell you something
or pick up the phone to call
and I doubt myself
I doubt the sixteen years that built our friendship
our daily conversations
and a lifetime of plans
I doubt myself
since it is I who hurt you
inadvertently and unconciously
Hurting your heart so much
that during the space you needed to heal
the fabric of our lives completely shifted
The hurt I felt when
you were unable or unwilling to forgive
No more daily cups of tea
or making plans together
Uncertainty around holidays
that never before existed
Like a private divorce
since we still exist in so many overlapping circles
that we built together
In my heart
I know a mending of “us”
is possible with some conscious work
I grieve for the easiness that once
was so natural in our friendship
it was like breathing.
I loved this image 🙂 |
I can so relate to your feelings of grief and hope for you as with me that someday it will be healed.
Thanks Darlene 🙂
Oh, you described it as something I've been through. Yet better things will come.
Mending rifts almost always bring some new dimension to a relationship…deeper, and more meaningful. I pray that is the case. Time apart helps illumine what is important, what is appreciated, as time heals wounds. God has a purpose in all things. The unfolding is so hard. Beautiful words here. Picture you used speaks to me…
Thanks Ellen – I agree
Thanks Fida!
I am so sorry for your loss, Christine. You describe the poignancy and pain so exquisitely here… it is universal and so very human. Thank you for sharing this beautiful insight. x
I have experienced this too Christine. I love the way you expressed your grief through a poem and images.